aAn awakening?- You realize that its time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince Charming and she is not Cinderella and that in the real world, there aren't always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of qhappily ever afterq must begin with you in the process, a sense of serenity is born of acceptance. I had this awakening. I felt trapped, powerless and hopeless in my marriage. At 19 years old I fell in love with the only boyfriend I had ever had, the only man I had ever kissed and my aone and onlya. We got married and I believed in love and despite the abuse I was going to try to make it work, at all costs. After 13 years of this life together, I believed my life was worthless and that I had little value. This book is filled with the adventures of my life - it is a memoir and an encouragement that there is life after divorce and no bad experience is wasted. While trekking the Himalayan mountains of Nepal and living among the prostitutes in Thailand, I discovered that by helping others, I was helping myself.Unless he told me to go, I would love him in the best way I knew how. ... We continued seeing each other and his girlfriend confronted me again. ... He considered her to be more of a friend of the family, than his girlfriend. ... God out of this even more than I realized, because I felt like I had already lost my purity and if I loved him enough, then he would stay and I could make it all right when we got married.
|Publisher||:||Xlibris Corporation - 2010-12-11|